just walk away !

I dream a lot, I know you say
I've got to get away
"The world is not yours for the taking"
Is all you ever say
I know I'm not the best for you
But promise that you'll stay
Cause if I watch you go
You'll see me wasting, you'll see me wasting away

Cause today, you walked out of my life
Cause today, your words felt like a knife
I'm not living this life

Goodbyes are meant for lonely people standing in the rain
And no matter where I go it's always pouring all the same
These streets are filled with memories
Both perfect and in pain
And all I wanna do is love you
But I'm the only one to blame

Cause today, you walked out of my life
Cause today, your words felt like a knife
I'm not living this life

But what do I know, if you're leaving
All you did was stop the bleeding
But these scars will stay forever
These scars will stay forever
And these words they have no meaning
If we cannot find the feeling
That we held on to together
Try your hardest to remember

Stay with me
Or watch me bleed
I need you just to breathe

Cause today, you walked out of my life
(Stay with me, or watch me bleed)
Cause today, your words felt like a knife
(I need you just to breathe)
I'm not living this life

im just a wall !

WALL..

this is the perfect words i can describe who im now..
wall..just a wall..

im a wall..jump away from me..
get a ladder, climb over me..
shit !!
this is so shit !!

im sick for give up words!
just let it be..FUCK OFF !
for now and ever this is i will never look back..
that things makes me down, so upset with that things..
why?
no matter if those thing wa a joke, i cant accept it..so suck..
no sorry words from you..just give up..
im silent, u keep on silent..
im talking too much, you trying to go away..
going with "jgn membebel"..

Its been explained, but still happened.
im sick with that..

i am just a wall..
jump, climb, crush, get a ladder and whatever thing that makes u going behind me..
but dont give the world fucking give up words.
Its makes me more and more going down..
believe me..
if its your way of loving me, thank you so much..
if you say tired to say sorry, excessive, or whatever, im so tired more then everything to give my all for this relationship..
so sick..
just loving you makes me long last.
Believe me, im so sick now..
im a sick wall.
damn...

motherfucker stupid mr. right dedicate to ms. perfect!

kemaruk!!

Today and after is the criminal scene to my life..
Its simple, but going to be unfaithful lessons to learn about..

Why must those thing happened?
Why sad stories remains me to be die?
Why mess life teach us to be lay down under?


simple words, this is sin, this is what God want us to face the reality of life..
No matter if all those is fuckin' unrealistic, sarcastic, politicism, unthinkingable, unbelievable, and damn others "un-un", we should take it, face it and eat it..
This is life..
If u seek the colorful meaningful life, find it under your bed it might be there..!!
LOSER!!

Dont run, dont chase, dont look at all and dont sing at all..
follow where rhe freeze flowing, foolow the rhythm of music in your heart..
believe me, you will see the meaningful life through your perfect eyes.

In this situation, im too close to be unforgiven..Its hard, its hurting me, its sucks..DAMN sucks!


Every single day is the messy day i ever had.."Lesson", is to be unrealistic word..
"PAIN" is too be perfect sentence. yeah....it perfect day.

I dont wanna sing, i dont wanna talk, i dont wanna walk, i dont wanna chase, i dont wanna think and i dont wanna know the next day after...
i want to be freeze this meaning time, when typing all this words..its the best of my messy day. This is a long journey, eyes close and the next open eyes, i've be a grandfather(im smiling when im typing this)!!so xial!! LOL



thankfully me!
-joop_travis-
25/7-250pm

heaven changing to be hell

pronounce life is simple be understood..
simple..only by a little pressure by the Almighty, is been untrusted, life going to be mess.

unregistered, unrealized, and unnatural..
so much thing is going between my day today and yesterday, its going to be mess and unhappy decision, its going to be sorry, its going to be misunderstood, its going to be bad and its going to be regret someday or MAYBE.

its change, its spinning, and its going to be unthinkin'able..
why must be settle up with this way? its remain me so many words to be explain, and so many eyes through its way.

i thought its going to be better, but the jealousy moment crush it out until its being a pieces on the floor..

come out, come in, why stand outside?hiding?
stand behind me please, hold me tight, hug me, kiss me, let me lay on your side and let me die on your arms..

believe me, no matter what happen today and the next day, i still the same for you, and it will be always..

i love you, i care about you, you spinning in my mind everyday, your name combining my my blood, your face in my eyes, your skin is the smoothest, your chest im dream to be lay about, your side im going to die, you are the one i need for the rest of my life..

painting your name, scratch your dreaming-face in my mind when i woke up, and i miss all those thing everyday and its circle everyday and after.

im only confusing to be here, why its hard to understand?
why changing in present day?
im confusing?


joop_travis
3.45am/28.6.10

best of me

since i've been here, too much stories was listed in my mindbook.
no matter it is sweet or sour, its getting me longer lasting even more that i can imagine.

truthfully, its too hard someday, but if it realize with true color of urself, its made too colorful you even know..

Deep in my heart, i wont tell anybody how many lessons i've been learned, but i just can express all those thing without scratch any fake-smile..its true !!!

its pain in every single on my day, but i got a second meaning time to listed in my true color..

how i manage them'll its the best part of me..

i miss every single day on my old time day when i was awake, the first thing i see is my mom face...
telling me that she love me no matter how bad i'm doing yesterday..

clock beating, fan spinning, freeze flowing, and moon lightning, i'm still me and still gonna be me..

THE BEST OF ME !

its hard to be me...and believe me, its HARD !

berhabok.

selamat petang..

apa aku maw taip ni?
aku baru blk dari maen bola..
penat gak la..tp at least aku ada something utk dibuat.
lately ni, aku moody memanjang..
banyak benda jadik yg d luar kawalan..
agak2nya bole gila jg la kalo xdotangani ataw dikakiki dgn niat yg suci murni bak kata
zaiton, gunakan tanpa was was..~~

life~~
aku baru lps abis during my internship.
sdh seminggu aku d rumah shj.
tidur, lepak, hangout sometimes, tidur, 0nline, poker, bangon, makan, lepak, merokok and its happened every day for a week.
xda agaknya yg baru jadik.

money~~
agak kurang mgu ni.
aku blom kerja jadi xda la duit..lol
harap kakak n simpanan masa2 kecemasan..2 pn cukup buat beli rokok..haha

cinta~~
KRISIS..so nothing penting sgt maw dicerita..
aku sgt stress kali ni..
dia berdiam, dia sgt keras kali ni..
mcm2 aku buat still the same..
sampai satu tahap 2 aku siyesly givup maw mampos..
aku rasa macam maw lari dari sni..
p tmpt yg xda orang taw aku ada d sana..
tp aku xmampu.
kalo la aku mampu, banyak duit, aku maw p paris, xpn p las Vegas..
buat masa ni, aku bagi dia masa realize smua benda..
biar dia tenang berfikir..
aku terima apa jak dia maw...dan aku taw dia kuat..even dia ckp mati tanpa aku, aku taw dia can survive if tanpa aku..
aku kenal dia bkn sehari dua..
atleast dia ada kawan2, aku taw dia bole..
tp aku siyesly, fuck gila dgn smua kwn2nya..
aku xkan pernah terima kwn2nya lagi..
what ever happen, i still in love with her till i bury inside.
dia la satu2nya perempuan yg aku maw.
buat masa ni jg, aku perlukan masa utk realize semua benda..
tenangkan hati aku..
lari dari semua orang..
biar aku tenang kejap..
aku sgt bngung plus stress yg teramat sgt..
xpernah aku bngung pasal "PEREMPUAN" mcm apa yg aku rasa sekarang..
aku terlalu mahukan dia.

kawan~~
kawan cam biasa, smuanya ambik kisah pasal aku.
aku syg kawan2 aku, aku rindu kawan2 aku, aku maw dgn dorang smua.
tp aku xmaw membeban kan dorang dgn hal aku.
aku mmg xsuka pn cerita apa2 dgn dorang..
kecualila aku btl2 maw someone tahu.
what ever story it is..
love smua kwn2 aku.

apa lagi ah?
erm..
lama jg la aku xmengarut pa2 dlm blog aku ni..
BERHABOK.
dlm friends list blogger ku, aku tgok wan sorang yg rajin gila mengupdate..hahaha

aku rndu bob, nen, ima, wan, roro, bobo, abot, arip...
hurm~~~
B&B apa korang bagi aku mkn sampai aku syg ngan korang smua ni??lol...

ok la..
tek k smua..
panjang umur jmpa lagi..
love semua..

6.53pm.
bilikku..
~joop_travis~

refresh..

salam2..
wow..lama juga aku xupdate blog ni..
fuh fuh~~~behabuk~~

1st of all, sori lama xletak xstory dlm ni..
bkn apa, slain bz, aku jarang online..
so skrg, sll2 la singgah blog aku..[;p]

aku still praktikal d sandakan..
myb, dlm 1sebulan lagi, abis la..
tp byk lagi benda blom setel.
hatoi~

aku tegerak hati menconteng2 story pn sbb baru tebaca blog wan..
terhengat plk yg aku pn ada blog, yg sdh behabuk gila ni..
its 3-4 months ago last aku letak story mory..
hurm.

talk about life now,
ok la..cam besa..
tp banyak prob dari happy story la..
maw crita pn banyak gila..
maw taw, tnya aku direct la..

love??
erm no comment..

maybe someday i'll realize all those things.
its not now, its "someday"..
eventhough, i cant stand that day, but its "someday"...

aku rindu semenanjung and my besties d sana..
wait for me flying to u'll..

-joop_travis-