bla bla bla!

bla bla bla..
uwarghhh!! bosan gilak..simple matter pn jadi benda bodo!
aku semakin xpaham..
pening bosan menyampah dan macam macam perasaan bodo yg bodo lah..
senang crita..

xpaham lah..
itu jak la..

unknown joop

going better!

situation it seems like to be going better and better..
but somehow its going tougher and tougher.
to many things i was learned about about this life.

learned how much to appreciate people,
learned to appreciate time,
learned to appreciate to myself,
and so many more.

i love her, i need her, and only her.
this felling will never end now and last.

:)
z, i want you to know how much i love you, but the point is, which way is the problem.
i hope you know that.
:)

unknown joop

she's the one.

It's really hard now..no more turning back..
no matter people see im smile all the time, but the true is, im hurting, damn hurt!
i be in this way for a long time, its been so much better and sick situations..


im looking different?
yes im pretend..im trying to be cool, chill and FAKing smile, but, it's really sick..
i miss her, i need her and i want her...
but how?

DAMN IT!

no matter how hard i try, its come and come more closed to me!

yes, u are the one, u are the one i need..
marry? FUCK OFF!
i cant thinking bout that. if that way she's going to be happy, im lose, she's win.
this love unset to sex, money and fucking freakin' lie..
i meant it!!
but id this is the end, yes u win!

i just can look and sit here waiting to close my eyes without anybody..
do what u wanna do, see what u wanna see!
all is in ur hand!

unknown joop/sejati/733pm

the last thing!

what the last thing on your mind?
it is such a things?
its not someday, its meaningful somehow..

believe in ourself!
do what u gonna have to do..
it would be the best thing we ever had!

think of future.
think of nowadays.
think of someplace.
think of some people word.
think of everything.

we pretended in many situation, we fight in many war, we get it in the end..
it doesnt matter if we succeed or fail, but what we even learned is the most important then what the meaning of we lift up our hand in the air and we die someday without any lesson?

if this is the end, if the day after is nothing more to calculate and conclude, at least we had ourself..
this is true, this is reality what we gonna face about!
simplicity and contradiction is in front and around us!
just live our life guys!

-unknown joop-
255pm-8/10/cc

my last fight!

Rambut semakin panjang,
pp semakin cengkung,
berat semakin kurang,
hidup semakin kosong,
semakin tua,
misai semakin panjang,
hidup semakin berubah,

itulah definisi yg bole aku gambarkan kalo orang tnya pasal life ku sekarang..
how is it going?
that my question..

td aku kena marah ole my die hard brotheart aco, sbb life ku jadi begini..
bro, aku xminta jadi begini..this is the only way i have!
this is the way im going through.
im sorry make you disappointed, aku xsengaja.
aku taw kaw sakit tgok n dgr aku begini, tp aku hanya mampu begini!
mungkin buat seketika, dan mungkin juga utk selamanya!

mmg banyak yg betul, mmg semuanya betul apa yg kaw ckp, tp semuanya aku sdh cuba sedaya upaya ku..melindungi dia, mempertahankan semua!
aku cuba semuanya..tp ini yg dia maw..aku kurang terdaya..
kalau la aku mempunyai kuasa utk mengubahnya sekelip mata, aku buat!

aku xmampu maw ckp dpn2 mu, aku sembunyi tangisku, aku sembunyi sedihku, spaya kaw tidak nmpk!
aku sanggup menerimanya sbb ini jln yg aku pilih utk hidup!
thanks my lil brotheart! You are the only best ever friend im gonna die for!
aku menangis bila kaw marah aku sbb aku xmkn, aku gembira bila kaw tau aku sll ingat kaw..yes so do i bro..


if im given a choices, lot of gold and you, im will die for you bro!
thanks..i meant it!

aku try buat apa yg kaw pesan, aku try ikut apa yg ko tunjuk.
hidup dan mati banyak kita sama2 biarpn jika dibandingkan dgn siapa2 pn itu adalah a pieces time, but it meaningful to me for a lifetime..
im never gonna hurt you anymore..
1 hour and couple of minutes we talk, give me 100 thousand of strength to me!


i'll do what you need me to be!

thanks jumadi rudin aka aco!
X)

unknown joop
cc
3.45am
LD
30/9/10

best moment!

i wear your shirt, because i dont wanna lose your personality.
i sing your song, because i dont wanna lose your rhythm.
i call your name everyday, because i dont want to forget who you are!

so many things spinning around me!
thanks to my bro jumadi aka aco for your advices.
thanks bro!

unknown joop.

realize things!

menyerah, mengalah, bkn la sesimple yg kita fikirkan..
biarpn kadang2 kita mesti buat utk terus hidup, tp apa yg kita dpt akhirnya?
kosong..kita tidak gembira..kita tidak berjaya..
mgkn orang akan fikir, kaw akan dpt benda lain..
ya mmg betul..tp apa? apala guna kita mengejarnya dari titik awal kalo bkn itu yg kita dapat?

kita mmg kadang2 mampu bercakap..tapi adakah semua orang mampu buat sampai titik akhir?
tidak semua..sbb kita sudah ditakdirkan dgn sesuatu benda!

percaya, dan bkn membiarkan!
hadapi, bkn lari dari kenyataan!

kenapa harus takut menghadapi apa yg kita mahukan?
cukup kah stakat tunggu dan lihat?
sampai bila?

tuhan mmg ada...dan tuhan juga ciptakan kita hati dan perasaan supaya kita terus berusaha utk apa yg kita inginkan..
DIA maha adil..biarpn kita ditakdirkan dari awalnya bkn utk itu, tapi kalo kita terus berusaha, DIA juga mempunyai kuasa utk mengubah takdir kita..

mungkin aku lemah utk menghadapi masa sekarang, diam dan membiarkan.
tp apa yg aku mampu buat?
semua depan mata adalah salah dan tidak betul..
semua jalan nampak titik mati..
hows this life going through this felling?
aku bkn tidak berusaha utk itu, sgt berusaha..cuma somebody didn't realize what i was done!
tgok aku dari sisi salah, dari sisi yg tidak betul..

follow the flow is coward words dear!
is coward!

realize thing, face it, open your eyes, believe what you meant to be!
believe in what u want to achieve!

follow your dream.
run run and run!
keep running!

someday, we realize what we need to be!
perception going changing with what we have done..
we had to many thing spinning around us, but where we are standing for?
which part is rebuild our past to be involve in our dream?
its US! like we meant to be!
its not you, its not me, its US!

give me a lesson how to believe!
im learning!
damn learning!

unknown joop!
X)