Hello 2012

hello..
it's me again.. ;)


it's been a long time i didn't put anything in this fearful space eventhought this is what i called a dairy of my life..
many consequences bring me a lot of experiences that teach me how to bring this life to the right ways.

people a leaving, people are stay besides me, come and go eversince i'd been here a long time ago..

pathetic situations i faced along my life, i tented to choose which one can become my only one until today has been!

I got no other option rather to take it as a challenge as a human being. I trust in GOD.. anything happen with reason.. So i guess this is my destiny..

2011 bring me a lot of sad story, where i have to cry often, have to remember where im been, what should and shouldn't do, it's such a lesson to be more strong enough with any other consequences.

I find a good friends, i got a better life, i got a better job, i got a joy feeling, but i still can't find someone like YOU!
i'd try for a several time to find person thaat i can call her a right girlfriend but still it's not you..

Being single, such a pathetic when people ask me, why don't have girlfriend? go out joop, find someone.. why mamat jambu don't have girlfriend? buat malu lah!
haha.. i just can smile and laugh to defend myself with this stupid situation!
i wish i can write something at my forehead that i really don't care about being single! And it's not easier to forget someone that we wish to be with us for the rest of our life, but it's not definitely for us! we lost'em for granted!
When every night we dreaming about them, every second we miss'em like hell, we eat for them, we put them infront, but the reality is, its just what like what we dreaming about! Evenmore we know he/she have someone else. and enjoying he/she life with others.. If you stand in my shoes that you know what definitely what i feel!
STOP with this isn't that really easy like people always does! frustrated!

2011,
a year ago, a moment ago, stories created, people changed, but what else remaining? is memories!

2012 started with emptiness and added my a long long time story and memory!
we have to move on no matter what kind of situations we will see along this way of life a day after, till you can't feel the beautiful of your heartbeat rhythm.

i can't promise anything, because i 100% guarantee that i believe people a change with many consequences!

For time being, i just can move on shadowing my unfinished promises!
For those are still remain a fearful moment previously, get it out before u will be burnin' under!

i miss my old-time-diehardfriends, i miss the moment we have a deep conversation, i miss the moment we had a unlimited time to laugh, walk around, flirt,spend time with no other time for important thing,sleep late,kickin' people ass, get drunk, get high, get a unforgotten moment and create some sweet smile!

i'll be back! Forreal, i miss my family which is become more bigger and bigger!
i miss the place where the dirst time i can use my feet to feel the way of leaving steps, where i learned how to cry and laugh, learned how to appreciate people surrounding, teach me how to hate and love people!

From now on, IT'S ONLY ONE JOOP that u' never find another JOOP as i'am! ;)

settled up on 659am/ 1-1-2012

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

Happy Birthday to u,
Happy birthday to u,
Happy birthday to u,
Happy birtday to u!!

Wish u all the best, and have a blast on this big day!
Sicerely from ur ex-bf!

beautiful day!

Lyrics | Ungu lyrics - Percaya Padaku lyrics

18 August... esok? 19 August..
what a big day for her!!
fuck..
what should i do? msg? call? wish? celebrate?
its been a long time, there is no perfect time for 19 August in my life!
it such a big day, but i can't make it true infront of beautiful face, perfect face!
damn such a loser!

what ever it is, i hope u will happy longer lasting as long u have your own life, you own trust weather im beside u or not!
im in yours! im in your soul instead of reality...
im here, waiting, searching and hidin' for a perfect day!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU LOVE!
have a blast for your bornday, success, get a beautiful life, beautiful career, beautiful family, perfect health, and be yourself always and forever!
HAPPY 26TH BORNDAY!

im in egoism! im too painful to realize all those thingy that eventually killin' me so softly!
this is not what im dreamin' about,
this is a fake
this is a liar
and............
this is bullshit!

hurmmm!~

what should i do?
i just can sing alone here, wishin' all my ways, all the best for you!
no matter u realize or not, im still here along shadowing you!

i miss you..

JOOP_TRAVIS

d masiv- apa salahku

Lyrics | D'Masiv lyrics - Apa Salahku lyrics

bulan ramadhan!

bulan ramadhan sdh bermula..
puasa jgn xpuasa..hikhik

Apa akhirnya??

Apa akhirnya?

Mungkin satu saat kita akan bertanya apa pengakhiran hidup kita kan?
Dimana kita, apa yg jadi, bila, bagaimana, apa rasanya..
Macam2 kita fikir.. Dan macam2 yg kita tinggalkan dlm mengenang masa itu..

Suatu kata yg pasti, kita akan mati dan itu tiada sapa pun yg dpt lari..
Dimana n bagaimana persoalannya.. Tp soalan yg wajib, bersediakah kita?

Hari ini, demam.. Hingus penuh dihidung...
Seminggu lagi kita akan menyambut bulan ramadhan al mubarak..
Puasa jgn xpuasa!!

Apa yg akan jadi? Adakah puasa ini seperti puasa2 yg lain? Adakah raya ini
Seperti raya2 yg sebelum ini? Yg pasti tidak!!

Mungkin raya ini aku xbalik kampung lagi.. Mungkin raya puasa ke-2 aku beraya

D tmpt orng.. Apa rasa kali ini?
Apa yg famly, adik beradik ku bt nnt? Gembirakah dorang?
Dorng mkn apa d pagi raya ah?
Dorang akan menangis kah sbb aku xbalik?
Hahaha.. Mmg tdk la! Tp aku tau dorng juga pasti rindukan aku, se

ⓟⓔⓡⓒⓤⓑⓐⓐⓝ ⓚⓔⓓⓤⓐ !

Percubaan kedua..
Mungkin ini yg bole aku klasifikasikan hidup aku sekarang..
Agak sukar dan terlalu mencabar utk menghadapi kenyataan yg sememangnya
Aku harus tanggung dan pikul..
Aku sendiri tidak pasti apa yg harus aku lalui dinihari..
Aku masih tidak pasti..
Yg pasti ini adalah percubaan kedua..
Aku hanya mampu mengikut arus yg membawa aku sekarang..
Apa yg nyata, aku hanya "bersama arus"..
Kemana aku pergi, disitulah aku berlabuh..

Entah kenapa, aku rasa semakin kosong, semakin jauh dgn nilai hidup
Sebenar.. Ya aku selesa begini.. Hidup hanya berteraskan kepala hotak aku
Sendiri.. Aku maw ke kiri, aku ke kiri.. Aku tidak perlukan jari telunjuk
Orang utk menentukan arah.. Ya hidup mesti diteruskan..

Terlalu banyak yg aku lewati kebelakangan ini.. Sakit pedih, senda gurau,
Gelak ketawa, tangis sedih, disayangi, dihormati, dipercaya, diambil berat,
Tidak dipedulikan, sesat, dilandasan, dan bermacam macam lgi yg boleh aku
Ceritakan dlm diari hidup seharian..

Hidup boleh dikatakan ada hala tuju, tp arah tujuannya aku sendiri kurang
Jelas tentangnya..
Tuhan tunjukkan aku jalan sebenar.. Aku terlalu rindukan hari hari lepasku..
Aku terlalu rindukan orangorang yg pernah bernafas seudara ku..

Aku terlalu yakin yg aku semakin hampir kepada "sempurna"..
Kenapa? Aku sendiri tidak pasti.. Aku takutkan mati.. Ttp aku sendiri
Tidak pasti.. Aku tidak sedia utk itu..
Aku semakin ssh utk focus.. Aku rasakan diri semakin lemah setiap hari!
Pelupa yg melampau, cpt penat yg drastik..
Aku takut!!

Aku harus bt apa? Aku rindukan masa masa dulu, bila aku sedih takut,
Aku bole sujud memohon petunjuk dgn yg maha ESA..

Kenapa ssh utk aku kembali seperti itu?
Hasutan bertimpatimpa ditelinga!
Haishhhh~~~~

Terlalu sesat aku ni.. Aku perlukan seseorang yg bole bimbing aku semula rasanya !
Mana orang tu?

Kerja setakat ni ok.. Aku bole dikatakan dpt gaji yg ok..
Even aku rasakan vlm cukup utk memenuhi permintaan nafsu kepuasan ku,
Tp setakat ini cukup lah utk aku habiskan sisasisa setiap bulan dgn cukup !
Tp kenapa aku semakin ssh utk merasakan "PUAS?"

Semakin buas nafsu serakah kepuasan ku!!
Bkn ini yg aku mahukan..
Aku mahukan ketenangan, dan bukan kepuasan...

Aku sanvat sakit !!
Tolong aku ya ALLAH, tunjukkan la aku jalan hidup sebenar sekali lagi
utk ⓟⓔⓡⓒⓤⓑⓐⓐⓝ ⓚⓔⓓⓤⓐ ini !!
Amin ya rabbal alamin !!!
Thank ya ALLAH even aku bkn hambamu yg setia dan baik, tp aku masih mampu mengucapkan
SYUKUR ALHAMDULLILAH kepadamu TUHANKU!
tunjukkanlah hamba mu ini jalan kebenaran sekali lagi sebelum aku pergi
menemukanmu !
AMIN...
Joop Arsat