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sandakan,, Sabah, Malaysia
life is getting harder and harder today and after. which is, only we know how pretending we are. be more mature to avoiding the shit given to your life being, shut the dramatic life, live your life fellas !

Saturday, November 24, 2012

Pain in the arse.

Monday, August 6, 2012

It's 6-8

Happy birthday to me.
Thank GOD for this bornday of mine. Thanks mom. Thanks dad, thanks the whole family and friend for many support for you'll. It means a lot for me.

Happy birthday jupri Arsat.

Sunday, July 29, 2012

Coretan pagi.

Jam menunjukkan 4am. Aku masih terjaga. Kepala pening kepala pusing.
Hari ini masuk puasa ke 9 hari ahad.
Pusingan 10 pertama puasa tahun ini sudah hampir tamat.

Rokok ditangan baru saja kuhabiskan Dan bersedia untuk tidur. Tapi masih banyak mahu aku ceritakan.

Esok belum pasti ada lagi selepas bangunku. Hari mendatang semakin kurang jelas aku gambarkan.

Aku merindukan kampung. Bila jauh, semuanya yang dulu dan disana bermain di kepala. Tiket balik belum terbeli. Aduh!

Esok bercadang mahu ke KL sentral kalau sempat untuk tempah tiket balik kalau sempat. Ada tiket man city tergantung untuk training esok.

Perut pulak berbunyi. Dari siang tadi meragam. Berak sudah berkali Kali. Tersalah makan apa aku sendiri tidak tahu. -.-"

Sahur hari ini dengan mcD. Terasa malas mahu bangun nanti, jadi aku persiapkan sahur dengan mcDelivery. Basuhan Baju masih berada dalam mesin. Esok pagi harap dapat bangun awal dan sidailah.

Hurm rasanya sudah boleh tidur sekarang sebelum mata lagi teruk meminta untuk berehat!

Selamat malam.

Saturday, July 28, 2012

This is life.

It's been a long time that I haven't update anything in this fearful chapter. It's a long and very messed up story I might talk inhere. It's confession, it's history and it's victories.

God is such a great creator. Everything's was done with reason. It's true and I admit that is really true. we did as much as we can, we think every single things that passed in a second and remember it as the time we pass by.

So many things happened. Theres a good and bad along our way until present. It's a lesson!

I've been so pathetic, energetic, plastic, sarcastic, politicize, criticize, and I've pretend a lot of characters to predict and accept those thingy.

I accepted and I rejected things. I believed and blamed so many things.
I did and left so many things. And I also remember and forget things.
It's not my fault if I can't stand still. I'm a simple human being. Did mistakes, and it's a must to be strong enough in this unpredictable world!

It's a journey where we stand now, and it's a prize with what we faught for.

I do believe, what goes around, comes around.

Now of never we feel happy, it depends on ourself how to conquer.
I'm happy with what I got now and I deserve to have it. :)
People come people go, is simple. Only the real fighter will stay!
Go go go!

Wednesday, February 29, 2012

im not a pathetic liar, but im the ambassador of hell!
people a walking, but i use my wings!
songs have a lyric, but i had a rhythm.

nevertheless, im waiting for an hour the establish my dreams.
sincere, i did a mistakes instead to give an apology.
i live my life with running away not to stand still.

i met only one girl that im dreaming to life with.
i love my family rather than love myself.
i had a clear eyes, but i got four now.

i prefer to eat shit rather than to eat your words.
im the one who loved myself compares to love anyone.
im dead for those who wish me to live!

for awhile after!

wahhhhhh! im here again since im gone for a while.. lol

LAHADA DATU.. the place im gain my experiences about how exactly be in the critical situation and woke up like nothing happened. Its really hard to forget instead to remember! evermore, its closely to bring me to heaven, but worth for me to be in that particular dreadful situation.

Now im here.. like the old time when i was a little boy and just want to know what earth is exactly teach us what life is mean about!

im listening my old favorite songs ever, remaining my beautiful story. Its hard to face it, i miss her so damn much! im to pathetic, singular liar, but in this circumstances, i have to! im not running away, im just hiddin' somewhere only i can jumping high to the sky!

wherever places im went to since i'ved been here is remain me of you.. i miss you..
but what i can do? i did a mistakes, but not now!

remaining you all the times is must, forget the thing is affordable.

shuuuuut! shut up and just let it be joop!

i still dunno if im going back where the place i can commit to my life sincerely, when the time i will back here is still unknown! just i dont have any prefer time! but i'll be back!



Sunday, January 1, 2012

Hello 2012

it's me again.. ;)

it's been a long time i didn't put anything in this fearful space eventhought this is what i called a dairy of my life..
many consequences bring me a lot of experiences that teach me how to bring this life to the right ways.

people a leaving, people are stay besides me, come and go eversince i'd been here a long time ago..

pathetic situations i faced along my life, i tented to choose which one can become my only one until today has been!

I got no other option rather to take it as a challenge as a human being. I trust in GOD.. anything happen with reason.. So i guess this is my destiny..

2011 bring me a lot of sad story, where i have to cry often, have to remember where im been, what should and shouldn't do, it's such a lesson to be more strong enough with any other consequences.

I find a good friends, i got a better life, i got a better job, i got a joy feeling, but i still can't find someone like YOU!
i'd try for a several time to find person thaat i can call her a right girlfriend but still it's not you..

Being single, such a pathetic when people ask me, why don't have girlfriend? go out joop, find someone.. why mamat jambu don't have girlfriend? buat malu lah!
haha.. i just can smile and laugh to defend myself with this stupid situation!
i wish i can write something at my forehead that i really don't care about being single! And it's not easier to forget someone that we wish to be with us for the rest of our life, but it's not definitely for us! we lost'em for granted!
When every night we dreaming about them, every second we miss'em like hell, we eat for them, we put them infront, but the reality is, its just what like what we dreaming about! Evenmore we know he/she have someone else. and enjoying he/she life with others.. If you stand in my shoes that you know what definitely what i feel!
STOP with this isn't that really easy like people always does! frustrated!

a year ago, a moment ago, stories created, people changed, but what else remaining? is memories!

2012 started with emptiness and added my a long long time story and memory!
we have to move on no matter what kind of situations we will see along this way of life a day after, till you can't feel the beautiful of your heartbeat rhythm.

i can't promise anything, because i 100% guarantee that i believe people a change with many consequences!

For time being, i just can move on shadowing my unfinished promises!
For those are still remain a fearful moment previously, get it out before u will be burnin' under!

i miss my old-time-diehardfriends, i miss the moment we have a deep conversation, i miss the moment we had a unlimited time to laugh, walk around, flirt,spend time with no other time for important thing,sleep late,kickin' people ass, get drunk, get high, get a unforgotten moment and create some sweet smile!

i'll be back! Forreal, i miss my family which is become more bigger and bigger!
i miss the place where the dirst time i can use my feet to feel the way of leaving steps, where i learned how to cry and laugh, learned how to appreciate people surrounding, teach me how to hate and love people!

From now on, IT'S ONLY ONE JOOP that u' never find another JOOP as i'am! ;)

settled up on 659am/ 1-1-2012